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With a little editing, this post I wrote in 2018 is exactly where I am today. Perhaps you are too:
In the blink of an eye we've gone from the Holiday Countdown to the aftermath of the thing. The year is officially winding down and we find ourselves leaning in to these last few days, yearning for an ending that isn't the end. We are in that waxing place, waiting as is the moon, not quite full, but beckoning us with it's promise to pierce the sky with a new beginning, the promise of a brand new year and all the possibilities it contains.
We write out our hopes and dreams in the form of lengthy resolutions, or a single meaningful word. We put to rest the things we accomplished, the trials, the celebrations, the life that was lived these past 12 months. They are our treasures tucked away in the attic spaces of our being. A sad sweetness permeates this time in between.
When something leaves, there is a word for our longing, it is akeru.
Akeru refers to the empty space created. The opening left from the end of the thing, "to pierce, to open, to end, to make a hole in, to start, to expire, to unwrap, to turn over." A single word encompassing the beginning created from the end. A cycle of time and humanity and of being.
Truly after all of the hustle and bustle that comes with the holidays at the end of the year, it is good to have this space in between to ponder and contemplate and open ourselves to the wonder and hope filled possibilities once again. It is a space of just being. Neither the beginning or a true ending. Both ending and beginning. An ending that isn't the end.
It is Akeru.